Adam Weitzer examines a phenomenon almost every musician has experienced at one time or another – performance anxiety.

Australian Youth Orchestra · Meet the AYO Episode 13 | Words About Music Feature: The Stage of Anxiety

Written and produced by: Adam Weitzer 
Edited by: Adam Weitzer
With thanks to: Jakub Gaudasinki, Phillip Sametz, and Jim Atkins
Music: Beethoven Symphony No.4 performed by the Alexander Orchestra conducted by Giordano Bellincampi at National Music Camp 2019

Your hands become clammy like the tropics; your heartbeat becomes an anatomical racecar; standing on stage feels like having an X-ray of all your deepest failures and insecurities. Few musicians have escaped the grip of these feelings. Performance anxiety is a phenomenon that just about every musician, and performer of any kind, experiences on a regular basis.

It might be the thought of fumbling through a difficult passage, or the aura of a large performance venue, or the presence of certain people in the audience. Whatever it may be, performance anxiety is normally marked by irrational fears and misperceptions about your surroundings, which kick our bodies into a defensive gear. According to Jason Henery, who played as principal double bass at AYO National Music Camp 2019, “it’s like a fight-or-flight response.” And it makes sense: when we perform, we are presenting our hard work to people who will inevitably pass judgement and often scrutinise our every move and mannerism.

Double bassist Jason Henery plays in an AYO orchestra during AYO National Music Camp.
Double bassist Jason Henery

Given the universality of performance anxiety, solutions to the problem have been thought through-and-through. Kate Mostert, who played principal oboe in the Bishop Orchestra at Camp, recalls a trick from her teacher: “You can think yourself into being on stage in your practice room, and in your practice room on stage. That was a new idea to me at the time.”

They say that one performance is worth around ten hours of practice time, due to the intense sense of focus and critical self-awareness that the situation produces. But there are also ways to simulate the nerves of a real-life performance in the privacy of your practice room. A technique I learned at university was to play a game, whereby you place ten counters on your music stand, and each time you play your piece or excerpt perfectly, you move one counter across to the other side. But if you miss one attempt, you have to start again. Fairly soon, and especially as you get to number eight or nine, the pressure starts to mount…

Oboist Kate Mostert plays in an AYO orchestra during AYO National Music Camp.
Oboist Kate Mostert

Sharon Grigoryan, cellist of the Australian String Quartet, suggests another useful technique. “Record yourself, as though it were a radio broadcast. It forces you to keep going, no matter what.” That’s particularly valuable if your cause of anxiety is the fear of not executing details. It’s important to see the bigger picture. After all, no less a figure than Beethoven said, in a nowadays oft-memed quote: “To play a wrong note is trivial, but to play without passion is inexcusable.”

Although performance anxiety originates in the mind, it’s also important to understand the physiological manifestations, since it is often the fear of these physical responses that can worsen the cycle of anxiety. They can, after all, be so debilitating as to sabotage a performance. My own experience learning the Alexander Technique helped enormously to calm my nerves, because it gave me something constructive to focus on. Normally we think in a destructive way when struck by nerves – don’t do this, don’t do that, don’t mess up this or that phrase… the list goes on.

AYO cello tutor Sharon Grigoryan performs on stage.
Cellist Sharon Grigoryan

Naturally, performance experience goes a long way towards helping to make the stage a less fearsome place. But it’s important to remember that even professionals – sometimes of superstar status – never ‘overcome’ their anxiety. Pavarotti admitted to remaining terrified of the stage despite his quasi-deified status in the operatic world, while the pianist Martha Argerich is known to suffer from acute backstage nerves before easing into her typically powerhouse performances once settled on the stage. The lesson, then, is that framing the question as ‘overcoming performance anxiety’ is the wrong approach. Clearly performance nerves have positive effects as well as negative. Any performer with a complete absence of nerves will tell you they felt flat and uninspired. The challenge is to find a balance between the fight and the flight, since it’s in that space that the electricity of a good performance finds its circuit.

Clarinettist and Words About Music participant Adam Weitzer smiles at the camera. He is outside and surrounded by lush green plants,

Adam Weitzer is a clarinettist who participated in the Words About Music program at AYO National Music Camp 2019.